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[that's getting looped right back at him because of his own objective. his soul was like 90% intact anyway so this just fills up the metaphorical gauge to the top. a light squeeze with his arms as that happens... I guess this is kind of cuddling now?]

It's fun...

[it may in fact just be cuddling now. foiled by robes.

though he is somewhat idly reaching up into Curtain's hair, finding the hair tie and slowly working it out with a bit of lazy curiosity]

I'm glad you think so, since I forgot about this effect a bit...

[it should come off easily, though his Finch ribbon is also there, so he'll have to do something about that]

I'm surprised you'd forget about something like this.

...throughout most of my story, I was rarely in the same place as my incarnation. Especially after I became a constellation. So it actually came up not too often.

[he does pause over what to do with the ribbon, and then just drapes it over one of curtain's shoulders for the moment so that he can run his fingers through the hair in a low and methodical way. It actually reminds him quite a bit of managing the feather Curtain no longer has, so it's a bit soothing.]

[his hair is in fact very soft and well-cared for, a man doesn't choose to grow his hair this long just to neglect it. the gesture is also soothing for him, a little bit nostalgic, but he's definitely enjoying it]

Good thing we already had experience with it.

As I recall, you found it quite frustrating the last time?

[Wry, more than anything.]

I'm not asking questions anymore, am I? So it's fine.

Was that the problem...?

[mild confusion and curiosity]

Wasn't it?

...to be honest, I'm not sure I really understood at that time, what the issue was...

[faintly abashed? but also kind of accepting. hair pet hair pet]

I guess I would say it was more that I was a frustrating person for being unable to answer the things Appointment with Death under a Curtain wanted the answers to.

It was more a matter of... mm. The impression that you don't want to take your own feelings into consideration?

[a quiet gentle warmth from Curtain's objective begins seeping through their bond, it feels a little like reassurance.]

[it is good that feeling is there because there is a lowkey somewhat 'cornered animal' sensation from this topic even being brought up. It's not the only feeling, he still also feels secure and comfortable and wry and maybe a little pessimistic and a little tired but also overall content. as we know, jae contains MULTITUDES of feelings.

Anyway he dwells on it for several moments, picking his words carefully, even though he can tell that they are still sort of 'not correct' as he says them.]

...Appointment with Death under a Curtain is someone who seems 'extremely considerate' to me. Comparatively, I think I'm 'extremely inconsiderate'. ...This is probably true about me whether they are my emotions or someone else's.

[anyway whatever that was, it was an objective, so enjoy some general pleasure and warmth flowing back thru the bond]

[yeah, this feelings cocktail is kind of a lot and he needs to make an active effort to focus on the words that are actually being said vs. Every Feeling Ever.]

Yes. But you'd prefer it if I wasn't "extremely considerate" towards you or your feelings, right?

[it's an honest question, no bite to it]

Ah...

[a longer time, dissecting these thoughts. there is some embarrassment but he is TRULY TRYING.]

...I like Curtain as he is, so that feels like the wrong idea to me.

However, if you want to know 'why did you feel this in that moment' or something similar... it's difficult to answer?

Someone once told me that I'm bad at telling my own story and I think it's like that. It's a little embarrassing but I am only a 'reader' after all.

[quiet, also thinking about that, with both some understanding and sadness]

I care about your story, though. And I'd like to keep hearing more about it, from you. But I don't want you to feel obligated to share anything you don't feel like.

If we were two normal people with a normal relationship, I would have no way of knowing your feelings or your thoughts... so I wouldn't even be able to ask about them.

Because of that... I don't want to ask anymore.

[aaaand there goes his emotional honesty objective again, another wave of comfort and reassurance]

[and then the ANNOYANCE at the emotional whiplash, which he is only making worse himself, with this, but. listen.

grumbles]

Ugh.

[snickers a little at that, amusement rolling through the bond and Jae idly twirls some of Curtain's hair on the end of his finger]

If we were two normal people with a normal relationship, would there be a relationship at all, though?

[amused, fond]

Why not? Maybe. Though we would've met under very different circumstances.

[he moves to gently push Jae back a little, not entirely off his lap, but just enough for Curtain to have enough room to start taking off his coat]

[moves where he is prompted, though there is another flush of bashfulness at realizing what Curtain is doing. but also curiosity and trust.. He lets Curtain peel it off of him.]

Hmm. What would an Appointment with Death under a Curtain with a normal life be doing? I'm sorry to say that I know my own answer and it's just 'working shitty jobs and reading webnovels'.

[he's a little embarrassed to be doing this, but it doesn't show on his face beyond the slightest flush. pulling at the arms to finish getting it off him, then just sets it aside on the floor]

Some generic office job, probably. I don't think it would be shitty, but I'd probably hate it anyway, if Nanami's experience is anything to go by.

Hmm, you think so? I feel like what I know of 'Getou Suguru' is he has too much passion for that kind of job. But I also understand how one ends up doing work that doesn't suit them. Still, I hope you'd be looking for something that would make you happier.

[well now he is just wearing the shitty default clothes. he HAS been washing them actually, as best as he's able. but not enough to prevent blood and dirt stains

Hmm. I'm too young to be a judge, but maybe a lawyer? The truth is I never really had a chance to consider any other career paths, so it's difficult to imagine.

[the embarrassment and nervousness are still there as he takes Jae's hands and leads them to the top/front part of the gojogesa, then he holds it too, lifting it up a bit to demonstrate how it can be pulled over his head]

[oh is this what we're that fluster increases dramatically and is clearly visible but. thanks to the emotion share it is at least clear that he isn't particularly bothered by the fluster per see it's just. unavoidable.

still, after a brief moment of shock he gets the idea and pulls it off over Curtain's head, then folds it, mostly to have something to do with his hands as he talks.]

Hmmm. I think the most important thing to consider is the personality then. Curtain isn't the type to take things lying down and has a lot of has a lot of energy for pursuing difficult tasks. And because you had--

[there is a brief awkward pause while he says nothing there is a flash of concern? caution? and he clearly changes tact]

--have the type of personality to work hard and get good grades and all that, I think you'd probably end up with a lot of options. A lawyer makes sense. Or maybe even some kind of doctor? Probably something helping people.

[he's amused, both because of the conversation and Jae's own fluster, but it's an affectionate kind of amusement, at least.]

I don't know, I've seen what medicine does to people. I'd just end up having a breakdown again. [also said with some humor]

[anyway, he takes Jae's hands again and leads them to the front of his robes, around his waist. there's a sash there that can be untied with a moderate amount of effort]

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