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[that is a lot of scars buddy, and he does take them in, eyes tracing the lines of each one. But he isn't going to ask, obviously. Nor does the sight of them trigger any emotion like pity, not even exactly sorrow. There's just an honest interest, a mutli-leveled appreciation, something no worse than bittersweetness, and then.

Then he figures that was probably enough talking and he leans back in to kiss Curtain properly. It's warm and charged and the hand on Curtain's chest sweeps slowly across it, letting the pads of his fingers ripple over the bumps and grooves of whole and scarred skin.]

[he meets him halfway for that kiss, it's both eager and restrained at the same time. his breath hitches a little when he feels Jae's hand start wandering around, but he pushes on with the kiss, deepening it slightly.

his own hands keep going up until they encounter Jae's arms. there's a split-second of hesitation before he makes up his mind and lets them move towards his back, splayed wide open to feel as much of his skin as he can in a vague massage-like motion. the more this goes on, the more confident he also starts feeling.]

[It felt like everything was too much last time but they have already leveled up to even more too much.

Jae makes an unguarded sound in his throat when Curtain's hands go around to his back, there's a flash of arousal across his mind. The hand running over Curtain's chest runs all the way down to where where the robes are bundled up at Curtain's waist, then back up to curl around behind Curtain's neck.

With absolute sincerity it's the first time in his life he's kind of understood how people manage to have sex.

Which is still an alarming thought, but not alarming enough to slow anything at this moment. ]

[hello Jae's one hormone, meet Curtain's... like three hormones.

the sound he makes and the arousal are only feeding into Curtain's own, and Jae can probably feel Curtain's stomach fluttering when his hand brushes over it. it's pretty obvious since it's accompanied by a heated chuckle into the kiss. he has very little idea of what they're doing and what the actual purpose is here, but he's decided it's pointless to overthink things right now, especially with the kind of feedback he keeps getting.

so he breaks the kiss and pulls back, just long enough to take his hands out again and pull Jae's top over his head, goodbye. the shirt is discarded wherever and Curtain pulls Jae close again, feeling his skin against his own, a pleased moan escaping his throat.]

[Jae doesn't resist his shirt coming off, he is still unprepared for that much skin touching skin. He had thought he understood how 'warm' and 'solid' Curtain felt the last time they did something remotely like this. Thought he more or less understood it until this point tonight.

But somehow it keeps getting more visceral in a way he absolutely could not articulate if asked.

He shifts bit, digs his heels into the floor behind Curtain to pull himself a tiny bit closer. This sends another shock through him that cuts at his air, which isn't terribly important when he just goes back to kissing Curtain anyway.

He scrabbles at the thin fabric still around Curtain's arms and shoulders with one hand, it will force Curtain to either let go of him briefly but it simply must go.]

[oh no, oh no, oh noooo. there's the rational brain screaming that they should probably slow down because this is Jae, and this is him, and neither of them knows what they're doing, and also this is probably a bad place to be doing it anyway, and honestly isn't it too soon to be going this far?

and then there's the lizard brain that honestly doesn't give a fuck about anything right now beyond how nice it is to feel Jae's hands and skin on him, how hot the room seems to be getting, how they're so close like this and it still feels like it isn't enough. it's nothing but heat and static and so he also cooperates to do whatever is necessary to get rid of the remaining fabric. as soon as that's out of the way his hands are back on Jae to press them together.]

[Jae is learning all sorts of things that he apparently likes that he honestly would not have ever guessed he would like.

Specifically Curtain's hands on just about any part of him. Even when he's not doing anything it's just impossible to ignore. It is also a bit hard to tell which feelings are his and which are Curtains because there are so many disparate going off all the time but strangely it seems like enough pleasurable physical sensation can just make listening to the emotional ones sort of, less important? And honestly he would have liked to know about that sooner ~~no it wouldn't have made a difference~~

But he does chuckle at the somewhat overwhelming chaos of it a bit.

He breaks the kiss and mouths a bit at Curtain's jaw, trying to figure out some words to answer the concerns he feels.

And then instead of doing that he pushes firmly on him to send Curtain lying on his back]

[would Curtain be able to resist that push normally, even from a Constellation? probably, yes. or at least put up some fight. but between the unexpectedness and the Everything Else of it, he just ends up falling back, easily.

the surprise is palpable and it shows on his face, but he's also laughing, so obviously he doesn't mind. if anything, it's more like the opposite]

Jae...

[Jae's face is flushed but his eyes are bright and there is, perhaps, a very clear vision of the fact that if not tethered by his inexperience he would probably enjoy being cocky, cheeky, over powered shithead in bed just as much as he enjoys it literally everywhere else.

As it is he definitely gets some kind of rush from Curtain hitting the blankets behind him and also the laughter and the energy between them. And

he takes the sight in and then leans down, leaning a forearm on Curtain's chest to brace himself a bit over him.]

Curtain.

[unfortunately Curtain very much enjoys this side of Jae almost as much as it frustrates him and that is very obvious right now, through their bond.

he lifts his head as much as he can in this position, leaning in closer, not at all intimidated]

Are you enjoying yourself?

[he knows the answer to this, but that's not why he's asking]

[Cute. Cute. There is a bright, interested buzzing still bouncing around in Jae's emotions. Appreciation and comfort.]

I've been wanting to do that since I sat down.

[on you.]

[oh no, that's hot. Jae's honesty and the thought of him having been wanting to do this are... hot.

help]

Should I congratulate you on your restraint?

[he flushes a little]

I think it's more the opposite.

But also.... I think. We should probably stop here. ..For now.

[there is a return of the slight bashfulness but there isn't really any negative feeling predicating this statement. He's still Very Interested, and could possibly be swayed, but... Well there is no feeling to explain the decision so it's probably one that is more practically driven.]

[oh.

there's a brief moment of surprise, then the tiniest flash of insecurity that he does his best to crush immediately.]

... All right.

[he's not sure he understands the reasoning for this, but he himself is aware of a lot of things about this current situation that are... unideal, in many ways, so.

more than anything, though, he cares about respecting Jae's decision, so the rest doesn't even matter.]

[Oh oops. Some uncertainty. There is the telltale shifting of his eyes as he tries to sort out his thoughts and pick the right words]

I want to do all of it. I just need a little more time.

[To figure out how one deal with whatever comes after this step.]

[ugh, no!! his head thunks back down against the blankets. stupid! idiot! why can't you be in control of your own dumb emotions?!

which mostly translates as deep embarrassment and guilt]

No, it's fine. We can take our time. And we don't have to do anything you don't want to. Ever.

[Oh. Oh no actually hm. he probably shouldn't smile at that but some combination of the words and the feelings makes his lips twitch in a little smile. It's inspired mostly by fondness but also some amusement.]

...I know.

[he reaches up to cup the side of Curtain's face and rub over the cheek with a thumb]

And also I do want to? I just said so. I decided that much already.

[NOW HE'S JUST MORE EMBARRASSED, doing his best not to look at him at all]

I know. I—

[please hold while he processes that last bit and dies.]

—You don't have to reassure me. It's just dumb feelings.

[sorry still just very fond, but also curious]

...I realize this is ironic coming from me.

But can you explain the 'dumb feelings'.

No.

[Dry amusement but you know, fair.]

Okay.

[runs the hand up from Curtain's cheek to pet his hair.]

[sighs, though this actually makes him feel a little better.

reaches to pull Jae down for a brief kiss]

Do you feel a little better, at least?

[good because he is not leaving while Curtain is sad]

[it takes him a minute to figure out what Curtain means]

...About Miss Beatrice?

[that is DEFINITELY IT but he now just feels rather embarrassed]

[HE'S NOT SAD, please.]

Yeah.

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