fullcursemeal | [Serpentine Horizon] Inbox

It is nice to see another face that appreciates nostalgia.

If you want to know the real reason I brought you out here is because I wish to hear your version of the tale. I realize it is rather personal, but I have only heard of it from Gojo's point of view, and ever am I curious.

[a bit of a wry smile, wary]

Curious about what? Do you disbelieve whatever he's told you?

Not at all. I believe him to be very truthful. However, he doesn't have the entire story.

So, if I might ask, what do you want from Gojo Satoru?

[his face sours at the question]

For him to survive.

To survive the tribulations and cruelty the world has placed upon him?

Or to survive the ones he has placed upon himself?

[wow.

let's just take a sip of tea before answering that one]

To survive the very specific circumstances he'll return to being in once he goes back home.

I do hope this is that box or else that man has terrible luck.

[Then he taps his chin.]

Did you not perish before that event?

Yes, and yes.

[in a tone of "so...?"]

But also, he does have terrible luck. Comes with the job description.

[He laughs a little at that. It is true. Gojo does have terrible luck.]

I will be blunt. I wish to help him. Not in protection as he has the strength to make his own way, but in his wellbeing. I do worry he doesn't know how to live outside of the role he has been given. That even if he does survive and his students thrive, will he be able to live in the world he has helped create?

[He pauses.]
Honestly, I truly believe he just needs to open up a little. To ask himself questions that perhaps he has not pondered before.

It is apparent he has much respect, adoration, and love for you. That your own experiences are deeply intwined with his. Thus, I have come to you to understand though I know it will be deeply personal.

What are your thoughts on this?

[once it becomes evident this is entirely about Satoru and not him, his posture and expression seem to finally relax. though he does make a bit of a strangled noise at the "respect, adoration, and love" bit.

sighs, glancing at the pond as he thinks of how to answer this]

Your concerns aren't unfounded at all and I share them, of course. But I'm not sure you're coming to the right person for it. Not when I am partially and-or largely to blame for him being the way he is nowadays.

Opening up is something he can do... should do. But it is more his self-perception and the nature of Jujutsu society that will continue to stop him from pondering things. Gojo Satoru is the Strongest and that is an unquestionable, undebatable fact. Everything about that colors his views of himself.

Yes, I am aware of his fascination with being the 'Strongest'. I think the title ridiculous and most likely the core of many of his issues.

[He sighs.]

I do not know if my own abilities can match his own, but I imagine I could at least give him a decent challenge. Not that I wish to. It would be a tremendous waste of energy, but it might be one of the few ways to drive the point home. Though I do wish to save it as a last resort.

[Also, don't think he isn't coming for you, too, eventually, sir.]

More than that, you were his friend. Mayhap his best one. Yet you eventually became disgruntled with the society, the star in which you lived in. In this, he could not provide a suitable answer. Understanding I do believe would provide the most effective route.

I would ask you, what changed? And for what reason did you find yourself on a path of opposition to your friend?

[kindly do not come for him, he's doing fine, thank you]

First: Don't try to fight him. He knows there's others stronger than him already, at least outside of Jujutsu society. I don't think it'd do much for him at all, except let him experience what it feels like to not be at the top. Which... may or may not be what you're after? But his identity may suffer for it.

[another sip of tea]

As for your questions, it isn't anything deep. At least not in the way you're making it sound. I just grew tired of it all and made some reckless choices, the kind you cannot walk back.

There is a fine line between self-realization and well... having that which holds up one's perceived worth being shattered. It is exceedingly delicate balance. Thus, I am glad we both came to a conclusion that it is not the best approach.

Deep or not, I do believe it came from a place of love and respect. I do not have the specifics, but from what I understand is those with curses are destinated at great cost to protect those without. Curses being the manifestation of negative emotions.

At first, you helped, but at seeing the cost to your fellow mages and the indifference to those you were helping, your path began to diverge. Perhaps indifference is an incorrect phrasing. It seems they simply did not realize you were protecting them or there was a danger at all.

Is this correct?

Correct. They cannot and are not meant to realize curses and sorcerers are there at all.

Is that a rule born by the societal mage council, or will they come to harm should they be aware?

It's a rule, but it's not without basis. Letting non-sorcerers become aware of the existence of cursed spirits would create a feedback loop where they come to be more anxious and afraid, thus outputting more cursed energy, thus giving birth to even more curses.

I don't know enough about these curses to comment of the validity of the solution. What matters is that is how your star settled in handling it.

What exactly did you try to do and why did you?

Kill all non-sorcerers so that cursed spirits stop existing.

For what purpose? To end a ever losing battle against curses. To protect the mages. Yourself. Gojo.

All of it, naturally. One thing leads to the others.

It does.

I do wish to implore I simply want to understand the making of a difficult decision. Hope and pray as we might, reality is what it is, and it can be incredibly cruel.

Do you think his current course is folly?

What does my opinion matter? He's made his choice and he's fully committed to it.

He might not want a second opinion, but such decisions do need council.

Beyond that, there is benefit in hearing multiple perspectives.

It's his life, I am not going to meddle one way or another. It's a privilege I never held and then repeatedly lost any potential right to over and over.

Did he ever ask for your opinion on matters?

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