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Does not the emptiness and the unspoken words not leave a curse of its own?

... You want me to give him closure.

[He shakes his head.]

To leave no regrets. No words unspoken. For both of you.

Don't make me a part of this. This would be for Satoru alone.

Do you really believe he can be content if you live with regrets? With words left unspoken?

Edited 2023-03-10 06:59 (UTC)

That depends on whether he finds out about it or not.

[He sighs.]

Think about it. I'm trying to push him to open up for his benefit. To consider what it means to live beyond the title of his birth.

At the very least impart to him his value as a person that does not pertain to his status as the strongest sorcerer. I imagine it is more than just his vaulted strength that you care for.

... No. Sorry, I'm not the right person for that.

Right person or not, I am simply here to sow the seed of possibility. To offer what wisdom I have being the half of a dear friendship that survived.

And I do appreciate taking the time to listen. Do let me know if the gift I gave earlier was not enough compensation for your time.

[he gives him a look at the "half of a dear friendship that survived"]

... And your wisdom is?

To not let pride, duty or even fear prevent you from saying what you desire to those you love. Time is fleeting even for nigh immortals. The chance will not always be there.

And how would me saying any such thing help him "open up"? If anything it'll only fill him with more regrets and further draw him away from other people.

[sighs]

I genuinely appreciate that you want to do this for him, but personally I think the healthiest thing for him at this point is to move on.

You do not need to tell him your reasonings or your motivations if that is your worry. Perhaps simply telling him that you care would do wonders.

[He shakes his head.]

There are two people in this equation. Why is your happiness, your well being not as important as his? If you continue to sacrifice, the guilt of being one that lived will just weigh more heavily.

There might yet be room for a compromise. A solution that fits both of you. But you won’t know unless it is explored.

He knows I care. He knows how I feel.

[or so he thinks]

My happiness is irrelevant because I already had my chance at a wish and had that fulfilled. After this is over I will go back home to a world where none of the box mess has even started and go into hiding, do whatever it takes to stay alive, so Satoru doesn't have to end up in that situation again. I'll warn him.

But this Satoru? The one you've met here? None of that is possible for him anymore. His life has already been ruined by me.

It never hurts to confirm. Also one of you could have told me you were from different realities. That does shed some light on the situation. I thought you were merely rolling over and accepting the fate bestowed upon you.

Now I have to think upon this. The possibility of multiple timelines does change things. However, you didn't ruin his life. To take responsibility for another you is ridiculous.

[a nonchalant shrug]

He should have mentioned it. But there it is, now you know.

And even if it counts as a different iteration of myself, our actions were still the same. I'm just the Geto Suguru who got lucky and was able to come back to life with the knowledge of what my actions have wrought upon him and everyone else I care for. As far as the Satoru back home is concerned, I'm still very much dead.

This place throws much on its head. You've given it a lot of thought, haven't you? How you can use this place to your advantage?

[huffs]

I've entertained thoughts, that's all. None of which would apply to Satoru.

Then I will speak with him again.

By the way, I did give him bracelets from that princess game for the two of you specifically. So you can consider it a gift for yourself as well. Do feel free to use them if you find him too incredibly stubborn. I would hope he would do the same for you.

Excuse me??

What a face? It is simply if you need a little push.

A little push down a cliff, sure.

Sometimes we need a hard shove.

I will leave you be. Thank you for this conversation. It has been enlightening. I'm sure we will have others in the future.

[sighs, somewhat resigned, but doesn't try to stop him]

Thank you, thank you. I look forward to your machinations.

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