[Honestly is there a way to deal, isn't the solution to actually be sad until I can shove it aside and forget I had a feeling.

and this is as good a way to do that as any.

When there is a brief break in the kiss he leans more weight on Curtain's knee to pull himself forward, until he's fully in Curtain's lap. And he does not immediately resume the kiss either. Instead staring directly into Curtain's eyes eyes, seeming thoughtful and for once not abashed.]