[ flops onto his back, causing 1) a startled bleat from the baby goat, who hops once or twice in surprise before sniffing his hair suspiciously and resuming chewing, and 2) the puppy to enthusiastically crawl up onto his chest and start nesting in his shirt ]

I don't really love the idea of becoming someone different than the person my friends know and care about. Or, like...all the stuff they're not going to like. Bad times in the memories. Reasons why I'm never gonna manage to stay out of trouble. Looking more like this.

But also? It's way better to feel like I know who I am, and where I came from, and why I'm like this. What I'm good for. Stuff like that. Before, I just felt super confused all the time, and like I was always making people upset, and getting upset, and I didn't know why. Or what was wrong with me. That felt way, way worse.